cold dark space

i think love is an illusion
an illusion to keep people searching
i'm tired of searching. i want out.
i give more than anyone will ever want to give
i cannot be loved as i love
it happens with anyone who i love
i'm too complicated. noone wants to know
life alone
i'm back to the way it was.
it'll always be that way.
i'm learning to accept it.
love is not for me to have.