cold dark space

it's hard to understand the meaning of losing you
the sound of your name brings contradicting emotions
i resent him for taking you.
i thank him for easing your pain
i see that he was bringing you home
to rest
to be with one child, while watching over your other
you were always thoughtful, considerate, and loving
so proud of your children
so strong to deal with what life presented
i am so blessed to have known you
you can see how much i've learned from you
how my life will never be the same
how thoughts of you will direct me
please keep an eye on me