cold dark space

Sitting, wondering about it all
What is it all for?
What if it was for nothing?
What if it was for everything
When it’s all done?

Alters her mind to numb it all
But it all fades away and back to when it’s all done.
Please give her more, take more, take it away.

They huddle together to brave the storm
But she still alone, unable to join as one
Walks backwards into this place
Not knowing where to go or how to get there.

Lonely nights into lonely days
Black into white into gray into black
And back again to when it’s all done.

She wishes she could change her form to fill in the gaps.
To make the answers fit the questions
To find the meanings to the meaninglessness
To ease the noise in her head

But she walks back into nothingness,
Unable to fit the pieces together…
Unwilling to forget or forgive Him.
Where will she be when they meet?