cold dark space

to 2004

i am forcing myself to see the good in the bad. so here goes:

this year:
i've grown closer to billy
we bought our first home, and i love it
billy has done a wonderful job of establishing a successful and honest buisiness.
i've learned to be more independent
i've met so many housewives!!
i'm learning to trust that things happen in time
i was in 3rd fucking row for 2 nights!!!!!
i got smiles from dave and stefan (shut up betsy!)
i've been here in florida for when my parents lost their home, when dad had surgery, when mom had her biopsy and her first chemo.
i'm learning to try to chose how to react the best i can, when i can.

i'm not writing all the shitty things that happened b/c i already have, several times.

in 2005, i plan to:
get pregnant/start the adoption process
help mom and family adjust to our new reality
work out regularly (i had gotten into a good routine before mom was diagnosed)
watch my parents be cured/be in the process of being cured
grow closer to billy
enjoy work again
get a hobby (pottery, scrapbooking, beading....not sure!)
learn more about my community and get involved somehow

ok, i think that's a good start. and a good end.